Thinking.... Life

This past month, I have been really thinking about my future. The boyfriend and I took some 'space' and just completely stopped talking to each other- but now we are back together, and I can tell you for sure, that I am 100% happy. All the emotions did flood back, but we are both just taking it easy with each other (it's like we just started dating again- and to be honest I love it!). I know I forced him to do and say and think many things (or tried too) but in the end I realize that was done because of the people around me and what they had in their relationships. I know that we both care about each other, and we want this relationship to somehow work. I never really been with a guy who was understanding and at the end of it all, he really does care (even though sometimes, he acts tough- sorry honey I blew your cover!).

I have been very pensive of everything. Of life, and not just my relationships, but of everything- where I want to be, what I want to do and where/what this world is becoming. I have been riding the subway and the buses and watching all these documentaries and this is what I am thinking. Maybe the boyfriend is right. Maybe Ecuador is the best place to live, where we can be free, and be one with nature. I don't know yet, but I am thinking alot. Maybe it will give me a new perspective. He's leaving in November and will be back around January, and then going back again. I want to go with him because I truly want to understand what this world should be. Maybe we shouldn't be working so hard, and trying to get so many things done. Maybe we shouldn't be accumulating so much money, or racking so much debt. Maybe we should learn to just live simply. No money, just relaxation and serenity.

What do you think about?
What are you thinking??

..... Love Tanya